In The Early Morning!

I am writing about strange things that happen to me this week. This always happen in the early morning after I have been asleep for awhile. I usually wake up or think I am awake because it is that period between sleep and dreaming. I sense myself having an out of body experience, I can see or sense something happening.

In the early morning hours of Wednesday; I thought someone was coming through closet door. I have had this feeling before and I keep thinking, it will come true one day. I live in an apt with a noisy neighbor(s) and some tend to make slight noises in the early morning. I go to sleep and most are quiet but I wake up sometimes to all kinds of things. On Wednesday when I thought I heard clawing, scratching; I looked towards my closet and expected someone to come through at any moment. I thought about calling the police but couldn't move. I laid there waiting for the inevitable. I pictured my neighbor coming through to get me. What would he do? I figured if he attacked me sexually, it wouldn't be much of an attack! I haven't had sex in a while so I figured; I am not putting up a fight. I kept listening and waiting! Well, he never made it through that night but I figured one day someone may be coming through.

In the early morning hours of Friday, someone may have been in my bedroom. I recall being kissed very passionately and I reciprocated. All I remember is me and someone just tongue kissing each other for hours. It felt pleasurable! I felt the person penetrate my mouth roughly and I gave in to their tongue playing with mine. That is all I recall of that experience. I woke up in a good state and wanted more!

A Sexual Desire

I HAD A STRANGE DREAM LAST NIGHT. I WAS LYING IN BED THINKING OF SEX, WANTING TO BE TOUCHED AND KISSED. FOR SOME REASON; I STARTED CONCENTRATING ON JUST KISSING. I REMEMBER THINKING ABOUT KISSING BUT THEN I DRIFTED OFF TO SLEEP. NOW THIS WAS WEIRD; I FELT THAT I WAS ASLEEP BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WAS AWAKE. I COULD SEE EVERYTHING THAT WAS HAPPENING AS IF IT WAS REALLY HAPPENING TO ME. I FELT A PRESENCE IN THE ROOM WITH ME. THIS WAS NOT THE FIRST TIME I HAD THIS FEELING.

I STARTED HAVING A SENSE OF ANOTHER PRESENCE YEARS AGO, WHEN MY EX-BOYFRIEND AND I STOPPED HAVING SEX. WHENEVER I STRONGLY THOUGHT ABOUT SEX, SOMEONE CAME INTO MY ROOM AND SATISFIED ME. AT FIRST I WAS AFRAID! I WOULD TRY TO WAKE UP BUT WHEN I HAVE THIS TYPE OF DREAM; I CAN’T WAKE UP! I TRY TO MOVE BUT CAN’T MOVE! IT’S AS IF THIS PERSON HAS CAUSED ME TO BE INMOBILE. WHEN I COULDN'T MOVE; I TRIED TO SCREAM BUT THIS PERSON ALSO CAUSES ME TO BE SPEECHLESS. I FELT MY MOUTH MOVING BUT NO SOUND CAME OUT. AFTER A WHILE I GAVE UP AND STARTED GIVING IN. AS I GAVE IN, I BEGAN TO ENJOY THE FEELING. I STARTED TO WISH IT WOULD HAPPEN AGAIN. I WAS NO LONGER AFRAID.

NOW BACK TO MY DREAM FROM LAST NIGHT. I WAS LYING IN BED, ON MY BACK; WHEN AT THE RIGHT SIDE OF MY BED WERE 2 PEOPLE BUT I WAS NOT AFRAID. ONE APPROACHED ME AND CLIMBED IN THE BED, GOT ON TOP OF ME AND THEN MERGED INTO MY BODY. THERE WAS NO SEX! THEN THE OTHER PERSON GOT ON TOP OF ME AND I DID NOT TRY TO MOVE OR SCREAM. IT SEEMED AS IF THE FIRST PERSON TOOK OVER MY BODY AND TOOK AWAY MY DESIRE TO MOVE OR SCREAM. THEIR LIPS CAME DOWN ON MINE! AT FIRST I DID NOT LIKE THE FEEL OF THEIR LIPS BUT I GAVE IN. THE KISS WAS LONG AND SENSUAL! IT FELT WONDERFUL! THE PERSON REMOVED THEIR LIPS FROM MINE AND PROCEEDED TO LICK THEIR TONGUE OUT IN A SENSUAL WAY. AFTER SHOWING ME THEIR TONGUE; THE PERSON’S TONGUE ENTERED MY MOUTH AND BEGAN TO EXPLORE. I RECIPROCATED WITH MY TONGUE. THERE WAS NO SEX TONIGHT BUT THE KISS DID IT ALL. MY SEXUAL DESIRE WAS SATISFIED!